A very brief biography...
First of all, thank you for coming to my site. I hope you are enjoying the content here.
I am a late baby-boomer born in early 1961 to a farming family in West Coast Northland, New Zealand. I am the youngest of five children. Like many "spiritual" people, I had a pretty unhappy childhood. My father was a violent man. After 23 years of marriage, my mother finally separated from him and began her own healing. I had just turned 8 years old. It blew our whole family apart but necessarily so. After that, I had very little contact with my four older siblings. We have all had our own demons to reconcile within our lives.
I am a late baby-boomer born in early 1961 to a farming family in West Coast Northland, New Zealand. I am the youngest of five children. Like many "spiritual" people, I had a pretty unhappy childhood. My father was a violent man. After 23 years of marriage, my mother finally separated from him and began her own healing. I had just turned 8 years old. It blew our whole family apart but necessarily so. After that, I had very little contact with my four older siblings. We have all had our own demons to reconcile within our lives.
I spent a lot of time on my own as a child. On the farm, there was little opportunity to socialise with other children my own age. This became the pattern all through my childhood, of withdrawal and self-reliance. As I had few adults I could really trust, I learned early how to problem-solve and figure things out for myself. I greatly enjoyed the silent moments in our house-hold. That meant that no-one was getting into a fight. I enjoy this silence into adult-hood and find inner contentment within it. For all of those young years and into my 30's and 40's, I was learning to listen to "the still small voice" within this silence. Our family went to church in the 1960's ironically, so I grew up with an awareness of Jesus and God. I later "found Jesus" in a very real way as a teenager, and this relationship and the teachings of the Bible have stood me in good stead ever since. It is one of the Rocks that I stand on.
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Even though I had a lot of "fear" issues to deal with, having been brought up in a world of dysfunctional "adults", I am also grateful for the Being who has emerged in spite of these adversities. I have since learned that my parents were trapped children playing out the roles learned from within their own families, arising from their unmet needs. I think it's probably quite common for early 20th century children to have such "distortion" due to being affected by two major World Wars. I have been able to forgive my parents over time, for the web of misfortune and pain they so unwitting wove for their children. It has been a hard karmic journey, particularly for my older siblings. We have all had our 'crosses' to bear.
As is often so common for young people raised in abusive families, I married my "father". After 4.5 years of greatest anxiety and deepest unhappiness within this relationship, I managed to get myself and my two little babies (just 5 weeks old and 2 years old) to safety, away from the abuse of yet another unsafe man. How on earth did that happen ?? Oh well... It did. I have no fancy words to rationalise that. I have never coupled permanently with anyone since that fateful departure from my marriage in 1985. I would not allow myself to be so abused, ever again. I learned to be even more resourceful and self-sufficient after leaving that relationship. I would trust no-one again for a long time, only One... Only the "still small voice" who spoke to me very clearly and dramatically at times, in pictures/ visions, in dreams, in words, instructions and guidance. Obeying this guidance saved my life on a number of occasions. My name appears in the obituaries of the New Zealand Herald in the August of 1985. It was a hell of a year... I learned the reality of "the voice" who lead me over the next 3 years from one unsafe harbour to the next safe one. I came to trust it explicitly. Obedience to this guidance WAS survival. This is the voice I trust, now ingrained and well-known to me. I trust it, no matter what.
As is often so common for young people raised in abusive families, I married my "father". After 4.5 years of greatest anxiety and deepest unhappiness within this relationship, I managed to get myself and my two little babies (just 5 weeks old and 2 years old) to safety, away from the abuse of yet another unsafe man. How on earth did that happen ?? Oh well... It did. I have no fancy words to rationalise that. I have never coupled permanently with anyone since that fateful departure from my marriage in 1985. I would not allow myself to be so abused, ever again. I learned to be even more resourceful and self-sufficient after leaving that relationship. I would trust no-one again for a long time, only One... Only the "still small voice" who spoke to me very clearly and dramatically at times, in pictures/ visions, in dreams, in words, instructions and guidance. Obeying this guidance saved my life on a number of occasions. My name appears in the obituaries of the New Zealand Herald in the August of 1985. It was a hell of a year... I learned the reality of "the voice" who lead me over the next 3 years from one unsafe harbour to the next safe one. I came to trust it explicitly. Obedience to this guidance WAS survival. This is the voice I trust, now ingrained and well-known to me. I trust it, no matter what.
An emerging Energy Worker and Tarot Reader...This is the voice Who guides my hands and Who gives me the mental pictures when I do Healings with people and Who provides the words and interpretations when I read the Tarot deck. This is the spirit of Grace Who is with us all and Who leads us all, if we just care to stop and listen. This Grace is available for one and all. Right NOW.
"Ask and you SHALL receive." Ask NOW. The turmoil surrounding your life situation is being alleviated right now. "You have not because you ask not... Knock and the door WILL be opened to you." (Matt 7:7) "Even before you ask, your Heavenly Father knows your needs and is answering you already." (Matt 6:8) Tune in to the unseen realm and wait ~ Your answer is near. Relax... And keep your inner eye open ~ Your answer is here. |
In Service to You...
It is my pleasure to serve. I hope I can be of assistance to you in your time of trouble or confusion. Make these phrases below your mantras until we can make connection. These have greatly helped me in the past and i'm sure they will assist you too ~
"All is well in my world." (Louise Hay)
"... And this too shall pass." (Hakim Sanai)
"Have no fear... I AM with you always." (Angelic vision, June 1985)
"All is well in my world." (Louise Hay)
"... And this too shall pass." (Hakim Sanai)
"Have no fear... I AM with you always." (Angelic vision, June 1985)
I look forward to meeting with you. I extend my prayers now to the troubled, the lost, the lonely and the fearful. Please know that you have people around you who love you and who want to support you... It's just that in certain mind-frames, we often can't see those people standing there. The cloud will lift a little and you will see them. I am one of them. And you have many more besides... Until we meet, I extend you love.
With greatest kindness ~ The Green Woman of this Celtic Circle. Blessed Be.
With greatest kindness ~ The Green Woman of this Celtic Circle. Blessed Be.